This is NOT intended as a dig at you....but....life is WWWAAAAYYYY too short to get wound up over paper towels....or any of the rest of that stuff. It sounds like maybe you are undergoing a priority shift...a perspective change which, given the seriousness of what you've been through, is both understandable and a shift for the better....IMHO, of course.
I hope that your recovery continues to go well.
